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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

decayed

i am dead
so fucking dead
no, i wish i am dead
i'm dying to face death
why am i so stupid to be holding on to this fucked up life
why must history repeat itself over and over
this sucks
so much
everyday, for 20 days i've been dying
i have had 20 deaths
no, every heart beat is death
and 20 days seemed like 20 knives and 20 decades
why the fuck am i still breathing?
maybe someday i'll live again without having to die too much
yet it seems so impossible
the future i see is pitch black
who knows what things breed in darkness?
yet in darkness they breed for there is no light
because when there is light, there is shadow
and the shadows always eat them alive
so they stay in darkness
and wait for death
thus in darkness you have friends you could never see
in light you are alone and your carcass exposed
but it is only subjected under you own scrutiny
i wanna die
now
so i don't need to wait in the darkness for death
i want to be eaten alive to end this absurd life one and for all
FUCK!

3 comments:

:: said...: What's with the post?

ah. I wish i was dead sometimes as well... Well, now im wishing im dead. I like your post actually, but don't dwell in emo-ness!

I hope everything's ok down there or I hope that everything that's possibly bothering you will sort itself out soon...

take care yea.; 21/11/07 16:36
Anonymous said...: i hope so too...
but tnx though
u take care too.; 22/11/07 10:27
Anonymous said...: eunice! what's happening? oh, i wish i'm dead too. zzzzzzzz, i guess it's a normal phase in life where you're bound to feel down and all. but, it'll be over soon and you WILL get over it. take care!

ibro; 30/11/07 21:00

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